Decisions
at 29 years old, yeah.. going to 29th this year, I still doubting my decisions, whether I am doing the right things or not. Especially a decision to move from the industry that I’ve been doing now, been recognised after 10 years. I do have a doubt even I can see money sign blinking in my eyes.
Today, after a short discussion with my bos, I keep on thinking.. Am I making the right move or not.
Being recognised in the industry is not an easy job. It took me years and loads of efforts. In these 10 years, from a ‘dun know anything’ girl (I am 18 years old when I first join this industry) to technical support to product sales, a certified instructor to a person who could consult people on how to deisgn things the right way.
Still remember the first time, I weight 52kg (now more more than that 
), with 169cm tall, wearing a long skirt and a piece of tight shirt with a thick blazer carried 16 pieces of thick AutoCAD R14 boxes to Texas Intrument with my senior, Josephine. During the installation, those engineers eyeing on us.. yes, I’m young, slim, with lots of energy that time.. Many phone calls received from unwanted people NOT for technical support but invited me for a dinner.. 
but it’s always a NO NO answer from me. Not interested. Till I join another company, started to involve myself in big projects e.g. Ericsson, MAS, etc.. a fren told me once ‘awe, nizza tu I segan skit nak cakap dgn dia. Dia tu nampak professional giler.. mcm tak leh kautim jer’ .. that phrase is from a person who dunno me much….. hmm.. what ever it is, I’m still the best person from my superior eyes, Mr Yap. Even till today He is like my god father.. Help me a lot, never stop to motivates me.
From a girl who could earn up to 3k a month in 1998, and up to 10k a month in 2002, I still have numerous debt to settle till today.
A very long story to recap. It’s more that 10 years.. wont be enuf for this page.. I wish I could return back time so that I would’nt spend so much on credit cards. But I can’t do so.. (I won’t even if I could) Hey, why should I? I have a wonderful family, a great husband to depend on (sometimes) and 4 adorable kids!!
What makes me move?
the product? YES
the organization? YES
the money? YES.. I am the real materialistic person..
the people? NO
the superior? YES-NO
the job? YES.. different responsilibity, it would measure my creadibility.. I am challenging myself here
the benefits they offered? YES & NO
the facilities? YES YES & YES. I could spend my weekend in the gym & sauna the kids can enjoy the swimming pool (we dun hv swimming pool at home ) aaaa… here I would save my money for Fitness First ler..
From my subsconcious mind — ahhh, what the heck.. decision have been made.. move means move. I have to define my priority too… (cakap kat hubby pandai kat diri sendiri, terkemut-kemut eh.. ) money that we earn will never get enuf.. expenses increase every year.. The main reason I move from my comfortzone to the new industry is to earn more dolars…… I’ll never know whether it’s right for me till I try it myself.
hehehe… mumbling jer.. nothing more………… cheers!!
